Another one down

I went to my first rally, the Tea Party, of all places.... Washington D.C. on tax day! 15 April 2010. I am deeply concerned and passionate about this cause. I feel that it is unfair that there is such a large population of people who pay no taxes... zero yet, get a large refund. Do I pay a lot of taxes? Yes, I pay my fair share. But dog gone it... everyone should pay their fair share. Fair Tax. Smaller Government. So nine more to go on the list posted below.

Oh by the way, "I've been A LITTLE AMUSED over the last couple of days where people have been having THESE RALLIES about taxes. You would think they would be saying THANK YOU," Obama said to a group of Democratic supporters who shelled out between $250 and $1250 to attend.

Someone should remind Obama that he is THE PRESIDENT he should have a little more respect for all AMERICANS, even if they disagree. Not just his supporters.

A little about me

I am the youngest of five girls from the Midwest. I had a hard time making friends during my school aged years. I have always considered myself above average in intelligence, but I was born with a birth defect on my face, a cleft lip, this caused me great consternation in school. To be brief, my fellow classmates were not kind, to the point of being cruel. Despite all this, I did fall in love with a wonderful young man during my High School years, we were deeply compatible. Honestly, I'm not at all sure why that never worked out with the exception that I went away to College and succumbed to the new found attention from other boys. The long distance and my need for attention I think destroyed our relationship. Then on a whim I joined the military. Since joining the military I have been married twice.
I have many regrets, but the biggest regret I have is that I have never learned how to be single. I never developed a sense of self identity. I have consistently sought personal validation from men. Recovering from my second divorce has been a real awakening period for me. I'll save that story for another day.
I am still trying to discover exactly who I am, determining my self identity, trying to keep it all together while I figure out how to be happy and single - on my own.

So here are ten arbitrary things I'd like to do or learn to do, in no particular order:
1. Scuba Dive
2. Macrame
3. Belly Dance
4. Sky Dive
5. Attend a National Rally/Protest for a cause
6. Learn to cook
7. Finally finish the Bible
8. Become proficient at Tennis
9. Get a trustworthy room-mate
10. Ride to Sturgis

Well, I'm not 40 yet, I'm 39

I have been terrified of turning 40 for many years now. I am still emotionally raw, recovering from an externally emotionless divorce. I was telling my gal pal about my fear of turning 40. She said that we could have a 40th birthday party and that she hoped to ask me at my birthday party how I was doing and that I'd say "I'm 40 and I've never been happier". So I am going to attempt a journey to 40, I have 11 months left. My 40th birthday is March 15, 2011, I want to find a way to be happy and single. Just me, happy with me.
So, what am I so afraid of? Well, being single, being old, being alone, aging ungracefully...wrinkles, menopause, cellulite, poor health.
So, with that all being said, I am working on "Bucket list" items. Doing things I have been interested in doing, I'm not sure I have a bucket list per say, but some of the things I have done, since my divorce in September include, skiing and running a marathon.
I went to a weekend ski trip with my singles ministry group in Riudoso, NM. I have never been skiing before in my life. I must say that I hate, HATE being cold. I took an hour long group ski lesson and could not wait for the lesson to be over because I was really getting it. Well, it turns out I was a natural! I was going down the easy "Blue" slopes without problem, I stumbled but I did not fall. -Not once. I plan to do this again soon! Well, okay, next winter.
Next, in October, I was approached about running the Bataan Death March at White Sands, NM, we practiced three times a week slowly increasing the distance until the actual race on 21 Mar 10, Our all girl team got FIRST place, we came in at 5:54 and the five of us, Violet Femmes, were awarded large medals!
I only have a few other things on my "to do" list, because I just have not thought of that many yet. But, some of them include Sky Diving, I have parachuted many times before, but never free fell from a high altitude. I would also like to learn to belly dance, and generally any other kind of dance, but specifically belly dance. I also want to learn to Scuba Dive. I am a very good swimmer and have snorkeled in Hawaii that gave me the bug.
Most of my bucket list includes travel. That limits me financially. But, in the immediate future, I plan to go on a 10 day guided Christian tour in Israel with my Christian Church group.
For now I intend to blog about my journey to 40 and how I can do this and generally become a happier person. I intend to do this through a stronger Christian walk and setting personal benchmark goals.